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Carrying Clay
Welcome to my Carrying Clay blog posts, below you will find all Life After Clay blogs where I write about all aspects of life after baby loss.
Beth Wankiewicz
Jul 6, 202323 min read
1000 days since Clay
24,000 hours. 1,440,000 minutes. I don’t even want to google the seconds. I can’t say how many of those early days felt like 1000 days...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Oct 14, 202112 min read
Our son, his story.
This is a blog that I knew I wanted to write for a while, I have had so many thoughts and feelings in my head that I knew I needed to get...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Aug 15, 202110 min read
Trying to conceive after loss - Where the F@$k is our rainbow?!
Trying to conceive (TTC) after loss is a whole new ballgame. I think its only right that I back track this slightly to July 2019 when I...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Jul 21, 20215 min read
12 things I’ve learnt in the 12 months since Clay
1- Not everything happens for a reason, sometimes really fucking shit things happen for no reason at all. I go more in depth in about...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Jun 16, 20215 min read
The universe is a dick
After Clay died I searched high and low for a reason, for some sort of ‘purpose’ that I falsely thought I had to find. See, throughout...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Mar 4, 20216 min read
So, what happens next?
It’s a question that’s been whirling around my head for the past 6 weeks or so, I know we are still early in our grief journey but I look...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Jan 15, 20214 min read
And then…half a year had passed.
As I’m sat here stroking Clay’s footprint pendent on my necklace, staring out of the window on a dreary January afternoon, Clay should be...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Jan 3, 20218 min read
Miscarriage after neonatal death
This isn’t the blog I ever thought I would be writing, I was planning on writing a ‘first trimester pregnancy after loss’ blog over the...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Dec 17, 20204 min read
Christmas without Clay
When Clay died I always knew Christmas was going to be one of the tougher ‘firsts’ we faced, however December has been a lot tougher than...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Oct 25, 20204 min read
I want Clay, but I need another baby.
I want to start this blog with a little caveat that I wish I didn’t have to write, having another baby will never ever replace Clay, nor...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Sep 28, 20203 min read
Why is it so quiet?
In the months leading up to Clay being born, like I’m sure many people do, I lost count of the amount of times I said to Dan ‘ooo let's...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Sep 28, 20202 min read
I'm not scared of dying...
Ok, hear me out on this one. I am very fortunate that during the past few months after losing Clay, apart from a few short fleeting...
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Beth Wankiewicz
Sep 28, 20205 min read
The First Fortnight
First of all, Hi, I’m Beth and Clay is our first child. Myself and my husband Dan are happily married and live with our Australian...
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